i am back here in nashville sitting at my favorite coffee spot, crema. last night i went to jordan’s house and we recorded some music. i had to take my car in earlier that day to the vw dealership because my car was acting a fool. i am not really sure what happened but apparently it has to do with the spark plugs… in car world, that is an important piece of the mechanical puzzle that must be in good health. in the meantime, i am driving a kia sorento around. i feel like i should have a screaming child in the back seat throwing toys and cheeto’s around like a little beastly tornado. i flew in to nashville from galveston, tx on june 6th.
so, about my cruise? it was amazing! it was really cool to get to hang out with every sibling and my parents for seven days. there were slight bits of drama mixed in to the nice field of mixed greens of family bonding. our muster station conveniently turned from an actual muster station to a bar right outside of the karaoke room. my mom was a known star on the boat because of that sing-along luxury. ikomang (bartender) was a really nice guy from india. he told me stories about his family and how often he gets to see them. our dinner waiter, richard, was also an extremely great person. he was always happy and treated us as if it were his first time to tend a table. it made me realize that some of the simple things in life that we ignore on a daily basis is as beautiful as a blooming flower or a cloud that takes shape into something only you can see. as people we ignore each other and go about our busy day like its more important than the next guys schedule. to be honest, we are all important but not in the way you might think. we have content brains living a pattern of life that turns out to be… just a learned pattern of living. there is more to this world than waking up, drinking coffee, walking the dog, going to whatever church or religion you tie yourself, eating lunch, talking about this girl or that guy, going to buy a new ipod, etc. i am learning this each day. as people we need to be extremely careful we don’t miss the bigger meaning of life. i can’t say that it is what i have lived the past 26 years of my life believing. i think it is more. to be real with you, i have always wondered about god and how powerful he is and what he does with me each day. i’ve doubted and still doubt all of the time. the concept of god is too big for you or your pastor or preacher to comprehend. if you know people who say they understand god i think they are lying. all we do is crawl a few more inches closer to our understanding of god and i think god leaps a thousand feet away from us in this process of digging deeper in our faith. to ever reach a place of understanding and satisfaction to who we are in god would be foolish. we are foul thinkers consistently letting ourselves and others down. what does that mean? it means we have a good record of living out loud the ‘how to’ book of falling short. this is nothing to feel ashamed of or lose hope over because that would also be foolish. if we as humans know one thing, it is how to pick ourselves up and try again. remember that.
you know the feeling when you finally “got” something in school? the strange and funny feeling when you figure out that special someone has the same feelings toward you that you do them? it is a brain ‘click’ or spark, so to speak. the little energy efficient light bulb has been turned on. the green curtain has been opened. all i am saying is that to stop searching what this life is about and how important your place in this universe is, you would be in the wrong. to be in a place of complacency would be the saddest day, week, month or years of your life. keep learning further than things people shove in front of your face. things you read or hear on television. things the so-called unbiased news networks feed you. if we are human beings, that means we are smarter than what we are fed for lunch each day by the world media or tainted politics. let’s prove it and keep learning. my eyes are open and i am still searching for answers.
joe.
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